Talent : Latent yet Blatant…

This day evoked mixed emotions in my mind… I spent almost the whole day searching for questions rather than answers… Sounds interesting no? That’s how sometimes a scribe is forced to think… So often you get wild when answers evade you… but a journo gets wild for all the wrong reasons… like I did today… rather this afternoon… I don’t remember what I was doing till afternoon… In fact, it’s a lie… I know exactly what I was doing… Listening to two of the dreariest commentators cursing the Indian batting line-up which collapsed like a pack of cards against the mighty Aussies… A hardcore cricket aficionado is bound to be forlorn whenever India caves in as meekly as they did today… And being one ever since I was born (Pardon me for exaggerating…), suddenly I found myself completely out of sorts… And the post-lunch session (though I relished the yummy dahi thadka rice…) was extremely unsahikkable… (Hold on guys… Don’t run for your dictionaries… it’s a Manglish word – Malayalam plus English… and it means unbearable...)… I was assigned the job of preparing a questionnaire for doing a well known Chennai architect’s story… What a wrong timing! I couldn’t say NO, as I couldn’t say NO… Hope you guys understand… Having sat in front my laptop (even it appeared pissed off with me for the shabby treatment meted out by my great self…) for hours on end, finally I gave up, even as I kept telling myself.. “This is one of those days…”…

As I was running my eyes through some of the mails I received in the afternoon, a blog invitation from one of my Orkut friends caught my attention… As I went through the blog, I was truly amazed at the way she has put her feelings down… The way she described even the minutest details was truly astounding… While reading it, I could visualize each and every thing she mentioned… the crowded Mumbai locals… the chaos… the commotion… the pandemonium… the snobbish ‘first-class’ travelers... I could feel those words she has written… What I found more attractive was the touch of casualness in those words spelt in an SMS style… My first thought, ‘well, she should have used proper spellings…’, immediately gave way to ‘well, that’s the beauty of the entire thing…’

I think I should thank her, for not just giving me a chance to read her piece of mind, but for bringing back some serenity in my mind as well….

She is a true TALENT…. LATENT now, but will be BLATANT pretty soon…

Attitude speaks

After 3 days of unremitting work, peace is back in my life… Past 3 days have been grueling, yet interesting… Last year, I remember, at the same time, things were almost the same… sleepless nights used to wear me out… but the sheer interest in the work that I was doing kept me on the go… Life has always tested me out, that too at times when I was least ready to face a daunting test… I, somehow, managed to sneak through all of them, though not completely unscathed. Experience, they say, teaches you a lot… And they are right… but it’s up to the disciple to decide whether he wants to learn it or not… And I have NEVER been one who would LEARN things teachers teach me… Or else I would have been much happier than what I am today….

Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us. Earl Nightingale

How powerful and true these words are! It’s all about having the right attitude… And mine has always been anything but right… I have, in the past, so often, got into spats with my friends and colleagues, because of attitude problems… Looking back, I shamefully realize, most of the time, the one culpable was me… rather my ego… and the attitude problems arising out of it…. All I can do now is apologize to the wronged…. My apologies to all of them who were at the receiving end…

The habit of reading, despite my deliberate and forceful attempt to effect a revival, still seems to evade me… Though lack of time, a clichéd excuse, is one of the prime reasons which keep me away from books…. Excuses should burnt and ashes buried… it’s time I got back to reading… And that’s the only thing which will make me more opulent in my thinking…